Saturday, February 13, 2010 11:47 PM
Why do i even still care about her?
she already has a boyfriend now.
and i know she's well taken care of.
but there's still this feeling.
this feeling that i still know i love her.
the feeling that i want her to be with me.
But i cannot do that.
Its like she's drifted apart from me already.
Went to visit my great grandma at the memorial chapel.
i truly miss her alot.
the way she took care of me.
the way she doted me.
no one could ever replace that kinda mutual love me and my great grandma had.
i just wished i could see her face once more.
and tell her that everything's gonna be ok.
Greatgrandma passed 2 days after my birthday.
and it happened when i was primary 6.
although its sad to let go.
but i know God has a greater plan for her :)
LOVEYOU AHZHOR!
the memorial also had lots of young kids whom didnt managed to see the world to its fullest.
especially this one little baby boy.
he was only a few months old.
it was kinda sad at first.
then i looked down at the others, i saw this baby too, whom had the same name and similar chinese name
i realised.
these young infants were brothers.
it kinda disturbed me at first,
my heart sank just looking at those 2 adorable kids.
who never had a chance to play with one another, or talk about life with one another.
its truly saddening.
haix.
when will it be my turn?
